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blesseddumbfuck[Biff settles down in front of the camera. His eyes are a little red, but he otherwise looks much calmer that he sounded yesterday.]
I am sorry for how I acted yesterday. I did not mean to alarm or anger anyone - I was not in my right mind when I learned Judas Iscariot found redemption.
[He says "Judas Iscariot" as though he has to force the name out, and it pains him.]
You may think I am a Zealot. Perhaps this is true, but it is not why I reacted as I did. Please understand that my reasons were more personal than simple dedication to 'scripture'.
I am calm now. I have had time to think and to talk to my friends. I have meditated. I have prayed.
[He pauses, then nods.]
When we came back from the island port, I told Persephone she had a stain, much like the seashell I found. It is her hatred of mortals. I have a similar stain: my hatred for Judas. I can't wash the stain from Persephone if I can't do it for myself.
Though I may not think he deserved to seek redemption, it is not my place to decide that. It is my place to find it in my heart to forgive him.
I can not do this yet. What I feel for him is too much for one day, or one week, or two-thousand years to wash it away. Time is not the only thing needed to heal this wound. But starting now, I will try to forgive him.
Please forgive me for the way I responded to this news.
[Private Video to Adam Monroe]
I am sorry I treated you and your love for him with disrespect. I have no doubt he changed as you say he did, because others say it, as well. But please understand it is hard for me to accept, because I was not there see him change; I only know the man he used to be, and the pain he caused.
I don't want my reaction to be your last memory of this place.
If he loves you, it will be the first thing I know of that he loved. Perhaps he has changed. Perhaps love will be his redemption. You see? I am considering the possibility.
I hope you find happiness.
[Private to Edward Sexby]
If you are willing, I would like to talk to you about Judas.
Now that I am calm.
[Private to the Admiral]
Will Persephone be granted her deal when she graduates?
I am sorry for how I acted yesterday. I did not mean to alarm or anger anyone - I was not in my right mind when I learned Judas Iscariot found redemption.
[He says "Judas Iscariot" as though he has to force the name out, and it pains him.]
You may think I am a Zealot. Perhaps this is true, but it is not why I reacted as I did. Please understand that my reasons were more personal than simple dedication to 'scripture'.
I am calm now. I have had time to think and to talk to my friends. I have meditated. I have prayed.
[He pauses, then nods.]
When we came back from the island port, I told Persephone she had a stain, much like the seashell I found. It is her hatred of mortals. I have a similar stain: my hatred for Judas. I can't wash the stain from Persephone if I can't do it for myself.
Though I may not think he deserved to seek redemption, it is not my place to decide that. It is my place to find it in my heart to forgive him.
I can not do this yet. What I feel for him is too much for one day, or one week, or two-thousand years to wash it away. Time is not the only thing needed to heal this wound. But starting now, I will try to forgive him.
Please forgive me for the way I responded to this news.
[Private Video to Adam Monroe]
I am sorry I treated you and your love for him with disrespect. I have no doubt he changed as you say he did, because others say it, as well. But please understand it is hard for me to accept, because I was not there see him change; I only know the man he used to be, and the pain he caused.
I don't want my reaction to be your last memory of this place.
If he loves you, it will be the first thing I know of that he loved. Perhaps he has changed. Perhaps love will be his redemption. You see? I am considering the possibility.
I hope you find happiness.
[Private to Edward Sexby]
If you are willing, I would like to talk to you about Judas.
Now that I am calm.
[Private to the Admiral]
Will Persephone be granted her deal when she graduates?
