I...yes, there were three. I always kept three. [He considers this.]
The point you just made is nagging at me as have points from Aleera's letters. I cannot just set it aside. [Because logic actually works with him a lot of the time.]
I...cannot sustain myself on false hope. Whatever was between us was apparently false, and she feels, one-sided. I may miss her, but apparently the impulse is entirely selfish. Therefore the unselfish thing, the thing she would perhaps want more of from me, is to let her decide how and if we relate or not. I will force myself to do this, and as Charlie is fond of saying, attach no expectation to it.
I have enjoyed the affections of one woman, once, since coming here, but again, I attach no expectations to that one encounter. It would be...disrespectful to think I had staked a claim. I merely...enjoyed her company, offered my own whenever she should wish it, and...let her decide. It seems to be a new habit with me. But perhaps the one who actually has a heart should be the one making the emotional decisions.
Do you know what I really need, Biff? A friend who tells me when I am not attending to matters of friendship correctly.
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Date: 2011-05-07 06:46 pm (UTC)The point you just made is nagging at me as have points from Aleera's letters. I cannot just set it aside. [Because logic actually works with him a lot of the time.]
I...cannot sustain myself on false hope. Whatever was between us was apparently false, and she feels, one-sided. I may miss her, but apparently the impulse is entirely selfish. Therefore the unselfish thing, the thing she would perhaps want more of from me, is to let her decide how and if we relate or not. I will force myself to do this, and as Charlie is fond of saying, attach no expectation to it.
I have enjoyed the affections of one woman, once, since coming here, but again, I attach no expectations to that one encounter. It would be...disrespectful to think I had staked a claim. I merely...enjoyed her company, offered my own whenever she should wish it, and...let her decide. It seems to be a new habit with me. But perhaps the one who actually has a heart should be the one making the emotional decisions.
Do you know what I really need, Biff? A friend who tells me when I am not attending to matters of friendship correctly.