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[Biff settles down in front of the camera. His eyes are a little red, but he otherwise looks much calmer that he sounded yesterday.]

I am sorry for how I acted yesterday. I did not mean to alarm or anger anyone - I was not in my right mind when I learned Judas Iscariot found redemption.

[He says "Judas Iscariot" as though he has to force the name out, and it pains him.]

You may think I am a Zealot. Perhaps this is true, but it is not why I reacted as I did. Please understand that my reasons were more personal than simple dedication to 'scripture'.

I am calm now. I have had time to think and to talk to my friends. I have meditated. I have prayed.

[He pauses, then nods.]

When we came back from the island port, I told Persephone she had a stain, much like the seashell I found. It is her hatred of mortals. I have a similar stain: my hatred for Judas. I can't wash the stain from Persephone if I can't do it for myself.

Though I may not think he deserved to seek redemption, it is not my place to decide that. It is my place to find it in my heart to forgive him.

I can not do this yet. What I feel for him is too much for one day, or one week, or two-thousand years to wash it away. Time is not the only thing needed to heal this wound. But starting now, I will try to forgive him.

Please forgive me for the way I responded to this news.

[Private Video to Adam Monroe]

I am sorry I treated you and your love for him with disrespect. I have no doubt he changed as you say he did, because others say it, as well. But please understand it is hard for me to accept, because I was not there see him change; I only know the man he used to be, and the pain he caused.

I don't want my reaction to be your last memory of this place.

If he loves you, it will be the first thing I know of that he loved. Perhaps he has changed. Perhaps love will be his redemption. You see? I am considering the possibility.

I hope you find happiness.

[Private to Edward Sexby]

If you are willing, I would like to talk to you about Judas.

Now that I am calm.

[Private to the Admiral]

Will Persephone be granted her deal when she graduates?

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[A little bitchiness was all Omega needed.] We all have our demons. Indeed, the man, if you could call him that, who massacred my race was here for a time as an inmate. He didn't graduate, but given his nature, I'm not sure what made the Admiral think he could be.

I am certain that at least a few people on this crate have ranted on in similar fashion about me.

But it does not make them right to do so, or even accurate in their thoughts about me. Perhaps there was more to this man than you thought?

I am wrong to feel as I do. Everyone has the chance for redemption within themselves.

It is still very difficult to accept.

I do not rant like that about people I do not know.

But you are right: perhaps there was more to him here. There was not when I knew him, but people can change.

Funny, it seems to be an incredibly common human habit from my point of view.

But perhaps that is because I don't see much to redeem humanity in general, especially these nights.

That's what you were yelling about yesterday?

Right or wrong, you can't simply vanish the emotion when you recognise it as ill-borne. Accepting it shouldn't take a day, or answer a schedule, it takes as much time as it takes.

You will find I am not like everyone else.

You are Dracula, right?

I know this.

Yes. I was upset. I am sorry I yelled at you.

It looks like you're trying to rush it.

I am not trying to force myself to accept this. I am trying to open myself to the idea that I might be able to forgive him someday, because my friends have given me council on this, and they are good people. I listen to my friends.

Omega, you do not know me, and you are not my friend. I do not need your judgment for setting myself on the path I think is right. Again.

Of course, sir, if you so wish.

What would you wish to talk about?

What was he like, when he was here? I know this question is very broad, but...What can you tell me of him? What did he learn here?

Did he...show regret? For what he did?

Perhaps.

Yes, I am. Otherwise known as everyone's favorite cliche monster, the hunters' favorite target and someone who is getting sick of all of this garbage.

I will not treat you as a monster until you act like one.

That really hasn't stopped anyone else. I have been reviled so thoroughly by so many that I now wish I actually had done something here to deserve it.

But I suppose we shall see.

It will be all right, Dracula. These people have been hurt many times by many people; earning their trust is not easy.

But you may trust me: I do not hate or revile people with no reason.

I am not interested in earning the trust of the humans. I am merely sick of the antagonism. It is hard enough to live peacably without being goaded.

I suppose we shall see. I spoke to you, and thought perhaps to give some advice, despite my current...state.

It helps that I am currently somewhere where no one else on the Barge, to my knowledge, could reach me.

Thank you; I appreciate your concern, but I will be all right. It is who I am.

...Where are you?

At the moment I am at the very highest point on the Barge that one can see without properly flying.

Oh.

Is it nice?

It is...quiet. One can observe much without anyone observing you.

It sounds very lonely.

Perhaps. But it is necessary right now. I need to be able to control my interactions with people.

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